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Approaching the divine

In Indian Tantra filosophy the different attitudes one can have towards the divine are categorised and described.
One way is to see the divine as a father, and yourself as his dutiful child. It works for me sometimes. And sometimes I do think of God that way, but when all is quiet inside and I gaze at the sun breaking through the clouds, it is a womans face I see.
Another way is to see God as a mother. I can't do that. Mothers give me the creeps. Motherly love in my experience is a bad and painful thing. This is definitely not the way I want to relate to the living universe.
A third way is to think of God as a child entrusted to your care. It speaks to me. I can see how it would be wonderful to relate to the world in such a way. But I can honestly say that not even for one second did I ever feel this way about reality.
Another way that isn't for me is relating like a servant to a master. Sort of like in islam where people are slaves to Allah. I find it distasteful. I am a servant to no man and no man is a servant to me.
I believe in all there are about seven ways in which you can relate to the divine. I forgot the other ones. I don't think they really suited me. These ways are not conscious choices. They are temperament, character. One is born into the way one relates to God.
In India they speak of the six beautiful ways, and the seventh is barely mentioned. The seventh is bad. The seventh is difficult and makes you sway from the true path. The seventh is for those men you wouldn't want as a guest in your house.

Last night it was warm and raining. I should have been in bed but I wasn't. I stepped out on the balcony. There was silence. Just the sound of the rain. A gentle breeze on my skin. The dark nightsky overhead embracing me. It was within me as much as it was outside of me.
For one moment I could sense that beautiful smile the universe can give you and inside I stepped up. I spoke the one sentence that truly reflects the way I relate to the divine from my deepest darkest self:

"I'm going to fuck you so hard you won't be able to walk for a week."

posted by The artist formerly known as the Bulb. @ 8:25 AM